I suck at getting close to people.
I honestly find it exceedingly difficult to have meaningful conversations with people. And while I may have lots of friends, I only have a few close friends, and I can hardly even talk to them about my problems.
I get jealous when my friends talk about all the deep conversations they have, and how much they love them, and one of my friends is really good friends with this amazing guy who I’m friends with (not that close though) and gah, I just wish that I could be that close with him.
I wish I could just have a really close guy friend even. Just to talk to and hang out with. I would prefer if that guy friend would be Kyle, (the one I was talking about earlier), but alas, I don’t think that we really understand each other very well. I need to make friends with people who are actually similar to me, none of my friends are.
I really want a really good guy friend but unfortunately most 15 year old boys are complete dumbfucks.
